There's this one blog that I read consistently. I agree with most things (no all) and the stories that is written in order to get a point across. I love sites like this and I really do listen to what people have to say. Its how you learn but seriously, whats the point of living this life if you won't learn from others and from mistakes made by everyone.

I'm trying to learn and move forward but how can you where there is no trust? Of all people that I have met, why is the biggest liar of them all remain in my life? He has a lot of good qualities but all that gets overshadowed because of the lies. I just can't have a life with someone I don't trust. how do I surpass it all and still have a life with him? How do I know if he is trying? I don't even know if he's the one for me anymore. The one this is for me is the one who has nothing to hide from me (except maybe he forgot to brush his teeth this morning) and when it comes to us, he gives me 1000%. I have never been the one to nag or bitch but I have been the one to question alot. I guess I didn't question enough when it comes to this.

Blog Site: Marc and Angel Hack Life. Inspirational for all fronts in life. They also have a site called Makesmethink.com. Yet again, more inspiration and story telling from random folks. I love it.

I know I say that I don't like people but I love them on the other hand. There's so much to learn and teach. I just don't want those people who have nothing to say or those people who don't practice what they preach to talk to me. I don't want no more empty space or empty people in my life. Been there, done that. I'm good.

Death came and knocked on my heart. He said that I can have everything else in life but that thing (pointing to my heart) belongs to me.

Is it wrong that I think about sex every 5 minutes, all day, everyday? I could be right smack in the middle of work or doing something and I start wondering. Like right now.... I am thinking about it and how many times I can cum throughout the day. I want to be f*cked 20 ways from friday right now. I think i'm thinking about it right now cause i'm stressed but the thing is, I'm not going to run out and do it. I got 2 full time jobs right now and I am lacking in sleep but I wouldn't mind it.

I never put that much emphasis on sex, never have, never will. What I mean about this is that i'm not going to stop everything or put anything in jeopardy in order to cum. I got toys for things like that  but it never meant that much to me. I hope this makes sense.

I don't do random hook-ups but at times, I wish I did. Maybe it will make things alot easier but its not me. I don't have sex with more than one person at a time, I really don't like diseases or the thought that I could get one and its like, what if you get one, it could be one of those incurable ones. The ones that stick with you forever and here you are crying your eyes out (inside or out) because your ass chose sex over things that really matter in this life.

My mind is an enigma and battles rights and wrongs all the time. I've always done that. Typically, I choose the right way of living. I don't want people to get hurt by my actions intentionally or unintentionally unless I don't like your ass and then you will get it. I will make a grown man cry with just my words, I just choose not too. Not worth it. Easier to walk away than to fight when it comes to things that don't matter in your life.

I fight for everything though. My right to live, think, smell, be, and to be me. I am full of surprises yet predictable when it comes to some things.

In the middle of writing this, sex popped back up 3 times.

I want to do it on my desk. there are cameras but I don't think I care.